I have a huge ego. I am secretly a ninja. In my free time Im a unicorn Tamer in Mexico. I run an underground operation where we illegally trade pixi sticks for tacos. Dont mess with me. I know people. who know the seven dwarfs and the talking rats from Cinderella. So yeah. Watch your back.
The name's Bond, James Bond. The real name is Emily. Boring right? I'm a fun person so talk to me. Don't worry I don't bite. I mean seriously those teenage girls need to learn they are not Vampires.
Why can’t I just be good enough for once? Why do I always just have to sit here comparing myself to everyone? Why do I have these horrible thoughts? Why do I just want cry and scream and just disappear? Why can’t anybody just love me? Is it that hard? Am I that horrible of a person that someone can’t just love me? I can feel it, you know, the falling apart. I don’t know what it is, or why this is happening. Maybe I’m just building up walls because its almost the two month mark and I am the “two month girl”. None of my relationships seem to make it past this point and I am just scared. I’m scared hes going to be the same and I’m scared I’ve made another mistake. I can’t do that again. I just cant make another mistake. I don’t know how to live with myself anymore. God, I am so pissy and insecure and annoying and everyone just gets sick of me. I don’t understand why I can’t be good enough. I just don’t get it.
Me: "Mom how do I start out a suicide letter"
My mom: "Go on and on about how good I was so they don't think it was my fault"